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2011: The year I didn’t see coming

Today is December 31, 2011. The day my January, February, and March 2011 self dreaded so much. Jeff and I decided at the start of 2011 that if I was not pregnant by today, we would “give up”.

But we all know by now that I got my miracle. I never, ever would have predicted at the start of this year that I’d end 2011 with my 38 day old baby in my arms.


This year, I didn’t run many races and I was let go from a job I loved. While I still don’t have everything I need (seriously, does anyone want to hire a health writer/editor/communication specialist/educator?), 2011 was definitely the year I got everything I’ve ever wanted.


Wyatt has brought me more joy than I thought was possible. I’m sad to see this wonderful year go, but I am so excited to watch my little guy grow in 2012 and through the many years that follow.


Like I said last year, I’m not big on resolutions or lofty goals. But I do have a wish for 2012: I want all of my real life and blog world friends who are struggling to get pregnant to finally get their miracles. 

Here’s to 2012 being the best year yet. Happy New Year! Smile 

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  1. I can’t put into words how amazing it is to read about your infertility struggle via your blog. Makes me feel somewhat human again! I was just reading through some of your older links and where you were at about a year ago is so similar to where I’m at right now…especially the emotions! And like you, the medications do NOT agree with me well…so many side effects. Infertility sucks…there is just no sugarcoating it. But as I endure all the pain (physically and emotionally) that it entails (as well as the drain on our bank account) I’m trying really hard to look at the big picture.

    Good luck to you as you pursue your next career endeavors! May 2012 be filled with much joy and many blessings for you.

  2. Beautiful post. Thanks for sharing all you do.

  3. What a wondeful year indeed!!! Having also struggled with infertility, and fertility treatments, I am feeling so very blessed to go into 2012 30 weeks pregnant :)

  4. I’m so very glad your 2011 wish came true and that Wyatt gets to have you and Jeff as his parents :) I hope your 2012 wish comes true too!

  5. Reading your blog this year has taught me to not take my presumed fertility for granted. I’m 28 and have been postponing it to “have fun,” but now know that it’s not a one shot deal and I should start planning. Happy new year!

  6. I am just so happy and proud of you and your little family. Thank you for sharing your story with us all, I know it was not always easy but you did it in a raw and powerful way.

  7. Happy New Year! It was 1 year ago today that the pregnancy test (finally) was positive for us. Amazing how much can change in a year.

  8. Happy New Year! So happy your baby dreams came true in 2011! I hope my 2012 is a repeat of your 2011, with a baby in my future!

    Hope Wyatt’s tummy starts to feel better soon and lik gets some more sleep!!

  9. Thanks for sharing everything. I too am struggling with infertility and there is no other way to say it than – IT SUCKS!!!! It’s so hard to watch people become pregnant so easily and for free. It always gives me hope when I read stories like yours that it will happen for me one day too. Your family is just too cute :)

  10. I’m so glad you get your miracle in 2011! Wyatt looks so much like Jeff in that photo. Happy New Year!

  11. I agree with everyone above and just one slightly inappropriate comment–wow you got the boobs! I know you had mentioned that you were hoping pregnancy would help that, now I guess the nursing has : )

    p.s. If you don’t mind me asking, when you say you would give up, was that infertility treatments? Were you guys thinking about adopting? I am so happy that you have your little miracle, Jen.

    • Haha, that’s sadly just a padded nursing bra. I leak a lot so need the padding! ;)

      We would have considered adoption eventually but not right away since that path can be just as expensive and heart-breaking.

  12. Not going to lie, I teared up reading this. I’m so happy you got your miracle baby! And I’m so happy I got to hear your story! I hope that everyone else gets their miracle baby too!

  13. i am thankful that 2011 brought you into my life :) here’s to 2012.

  14. Infertility is one of the biggest challenges I’ve faced as well… so glad you got your miracle, and like you said, here’s hoping many more miracles will be born in 2012! I’m sure your blog is an inspiration for many. Happy new year!

  15. I am so glad that you ended up with your miracle and 12/31/2011 ended up not being the date that you spent the first several months of 2011 dreading.
    Happy New Year!

  16. What a beautiful family! Here’s to an amazing 2012 for y’all!

  17. Thank you for this post. I was really dreading Dec 31 and any occasion that marks the passing of time. It just reminds me of how long we have been unsuccessfully trying for a baby. But I am hopeful for what 2012 may bring. Happy new year.

  18. Wishing you and your family an even better 2012!!

  19. it’s been fun to watch you over this past year. You finally got your miracle. :) I am so so happy for you and Jeff and can’t wait to see what’s in store for yall in 2012!

  20. Congratulations on your miracle!! I have no clue how I ended up here (a click here, a click there..) but I read your back story a little and I’m so excited for you to see your dream of a baby come true! I also have PCOS and had trouble conceiving, but fortunately one round of chlomid did the trick for me (and metformin which I’m still taking). I’m due in July. Here’s to an unbelievable awesome 2012!

  21. You have an amazing story – I’ve enjoyed reading it so much this year – many thanks! We’ve had many months of no luck in the baby department, so it does give me some hope to read about your journey.

  22. Thanks for this post. I am really glad I found your blog. After struggling for over a year now, your blog gives me hope :) I find out on the 12th whether or not our 2nd IUI worked…cross your fingers!

  23. That is a beautiful post! thank you because my husband and I would really like to start our family this year!

  24. Thank you so much for your wonderful “resolution wish” for all of us! I’m a runner and praying my miracle comes this year too. Been trying for about 7 months.

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