This Runner's Trials

Before we get into the pregnancy details…

I plan on sharing all the nitty gritty details of my pregnancy with you guys :) I can't wait to tell you:

  • How I knew my doctor was wrong well before the positive pregnancy test.
  • How I've felt emotionally these past two months. Hint: it's not how I expected to feel at all.
  • About running (!) during pregnancy.


Yes, I raced while pregnant!

But I need to say a few things before I delve into all of that…

First, a huge thank you to all of you on my pregnancy. I was beyond overwhelmed and touched. I smiled like a fool every time I got a new tweet, comment, or email. Thank you guys so much for the positive vibes, prayers, and well wishes. I am so lucky to be part of such a supportive community.


Second, to all of my infertility friends, a special thank you. I know how hard it is to hear a pregnancy announcement and I am so sorry that I had to be the one to hurt you the other day. Every time I've had to tell a struggling friend about my pregnancy, I get choked up and shake. I've been on the receiving end of that news before, and while I'm always thrilled for my friend, it stings like nothing else.

I know reading about my pregnancy updates will bring tears to your eyes. I know seeing my growing belly will make you close your computer browser faster than you ever have before. And I know you only feel this way because you want to be in my shoes so, so badly. I think about you guys all the time and pray we all get our happy endings.

I'm going to do the best I can to be sensitive throughout this journey. I promise to never whine about fatigue, morning sickness, my expanding waistline, or how difficult it is to choose a stroller. I know what a blessing these complaints are and I will never take my pregnancy for granted. Heck, the first day I felt nauseated I sobbed tears of joy because I was so happy to have the telltale pregnancy symptom.

Know that I am still going to bring up infertility. My infertility struggle has really impacted how I've handled my pregnancy. I've dealt with some unique emotions and I want to share them. And the fact is, most people with infertility will eventually be pregnant, so I know many of you can or will relate to me one day. (I know. I cannot believe I just said that. I used to want to slap people when they said that to me.)


Finally, to my non-infertile friends, you guys are amazing. Seriously. I bet it's been so hard to grasp what I'm going through, but you still offered me so much support. Thank you.

I want you to know one more thing about infertility, though: I was one of the lucky ones. In the infertility world, I got pregnant easily. All I had to do was take 25 little, white pills and then have relations with my husband. Many, many women with infertility have struggled much longer than me, have tried way more expensive and invasive treatments, and are still childless. So I am far from the textbook case.

Ok, now  we can get into the more exciting pregnancy stuff. Hold on tight ;)


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  1. Jen- love this. I’m not dealing with infertility or trying to get pregnant, but the sensitivity in which you approach this and the obvious thought behind everything you wrote is amazing.
    So excited again for you guys! Can’t wait to hear all the details :)

  2. Excitedly absorbing it all :)

  3. Congratulations! I have enjoyed reading your blog for awhile and am so happy that you finally got your miracle! :) I have two little ones and did not struggle with infertility but had a complicated and high risk first pregnancy. I encourage you to take it easy on yourself, having difficult emotions and physical symptoms (and even sharing that with those around you or ‘complaining’) does NOT mean that you value the miracle any less!! It means you are a pregnant human. I wish you the best in your pregnancy!! :)

  4. Still grinning from ear to ear with happiness for you! And I can’t wait to hear ALL the nitty gritty details of your pregnancy (as my fellow public health nerd, I know you won’t hold back ;)).

    I am in a completely different phase of life at the moment so of course cannot completely grasp what you have gone through up to this point, and what you’ll be going through now. But I do really appreciate the sensitivity with which you are bringing this up (though I do not think you should feel the least bit guilty for your miracle!). And I love that you truly view pregnancy as the miracle and blessing that it is. I’m sorry that you had to go through so much pain in order to have this perspective, but I know all of that will just make you an even better mother. And honestly – it’s very refreshing to hear you say that you won’t complain about the not-so-fun parts of pregnancy. I mean, I know it can be difficult. And I know it’s harder on some women than others. But I really appreciate your true joy about everything. Can’t wait to follow along on this journey!!

  5. I love this post – you look so happy in all your pictures!

    I am especially looking forward to hearing your thoughts on running during pregnancy. I have been pregnant twice and I noticed big changes physically during those times that affected my running a lot, so I’m very interested to hear what your experience has been!

  6. I’ve not been pregnant and am not trying but I’m interested (and excited) to follow your journey to motherhood! :-)

  7. I love how genuinely happy you look in these pictures. Such a huge difference.

  8. The care that you show for others who are going through what you went through (infertility) is amazing. You have such a genuine heart and I bet that you’re going to be a phenomenal mother <3 you deserve this baby :)

  9. can’t wait to hear the details! By the way, nice shirt in the last photo – I’ll be sweating some for you tomorrow, while running Charity Chase!

    • Ahh, good luck! Look for my brother-in-law! He’s a thinner, shorter version of my husband and he’s trying to win the whole race :)

  10. Jen, again I am so so happy for you. This post, and your consideration of other women struggling with infertility, speaks so highly of you and you are going to be a great mommy. I have to thank you for being so open about your struggles. Having lived with PCOS since I was 15 it’s really forced me to reflect on what I want for my future. I also can’t wait to see your growing bump photos – you are too cute!

  11. Yyaayy! So glad You announced. I was starting yo get nervous and worry I would accidentally slip. Yay for belly pics! Eeeeekkkkk!!!!
    can’t wait for all the fun!!!

  12. awww i LOVE this post! so happy for you :)

  13. The “relations with my husband” made cry and laugh!!!

  14. I love your attitude and how you are so sensitive to all of your readers! Can’t wait to read about this incredible journey you are about to embark :)

  15. I didn’t get a chance to comment the other day but I just wanted to say congratulations on your blessing!

  16. So so happy for you!!! I’m excited to follow along too :)

  17. This was such a sensitive and beautiful post. There’s so many emotions on all sides of the pregnancy/infertility story; I’m looking forward to hearing about how it’s affected your experiences so far!

  18. “relations with my husband” hahaha. Jen, I am so so happy for you!! Even chatted about you with Adrienne this morning. And it makes me excited to have babies too. So happy your miracle is here : )

  19. I thought this was such a wonderful and sensitive post. Cannot wait to read about your new journey as a mom-to-be!

  20. Congrats on your miracle!

  21. CONGATS!!! i’m new to your blog but doing a little catch-up and wanted to offer you a huge congrats and all of my best wishes! i’ve had friends who struggled to get pregnant themselves and witnessed just how heartbreaking infertility can be. blessedly you are now pregnant so i’m thrilled for you! and i also wanted to just note how kind and sympathetic you are in addressing those still struggling to get pregnant, it just shows what a big heart you have…that baby will have a wonderful mamma! AND even better that she’s a running mamma…hehe! great stuff…my mom ran up until the day she gave birth to me and my sibs…haha. keep it up and looking forward to updates. :)

  22. I never got to wish you my congratulations! I am so happy for you! You look so incredibly happy in these pictures!

    P.S- LOVE the Charity Chase shirt! I ran it yesterday and holy crap, those hills! We don’t have hills in Florida. ;)

  23. I love that you had such a special message to those still struggling with infertility. It shows how amazing you are!

  24. I just want to say thank you for your sensitivity and sweet words. It’s obvious that you are a very kind person and although many of your readers may not understand what you went through, I do, and it means a lot to me that you recognize the people who continue to struggle.

    PS – you are absolutely glowing pregnant! congratulations and I am looking forward to reading all about your journey :)

  25. You are going to be a GREAT mom!

  26. Jen, you are awesome! I can’t wait to start hearing about your pregnancy (I’m the baby buddy due on 12-15 remember? ;) And I totally did the Havasu Half Marathon on 4/9 before I knew I was prego. My time was 1:58 (okay for me) but not my best race and was feeling winded (now I know why!). I haven’t run since getting my news mostly because of fatigue and nausea. My pr marathon is 3:50 and I’m a little anxious about not running for 6 more months so I’ll be curious to see how you are feeling, etc. Congrats again- Jen in LA

  27. Hi, I just started reading your blog this week at the recommendation of a friend who follows you regularly. I just wanted to tell you THANK YOU for this post and all of the others on infertility. It takes a strong person to open up about these struggles and some days I feel stronger reading your posts. I can’t wait to follow your journey and someday have a journey of my own!

  28. This is beautiful! I was tearing up reading it.

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