I plan on sharing all the nitty gritty details of my pregnancy with you guys I can't wait to tell you:
- How I knew my doctor was wrong well before the positive pregnancy test.
- How I've felt emotionally these past two months. Hint: it's not how I expected to feel at all.
- About running (!) during pregnancy.
Yes, I raced while pregnant!
But I need to say a few things before I delve into all of that…
First, a huge thank you to all of you on my pregnancy. I was beyond overwhelmed and touched. I smiled like a fool every time I got a new tweet, comment, or email. Thank you guys so much for the positive vibes, prayers, and well wishes. I am so lucky to be part of such a supportive community.
Second, to all of my infertility friends, a special thank you. I know how hard it is to hear a pregnancy announcement and I am so sorry that I had to be the one to hurt you the other day. Every time I've had to tell a struggling friend about my pregnancy, I get choked up and shake. I've been on the receiving end of that news before, and while I'm always thrilled for my friend, it stings like nothing else.
I know reading about my pregnancy updates will bring tears to your eyes. I know seeing my growing belly will make you close your computer browser faster than you ever have before. And I know you only feel this way because you want to be in my shoes so, so badly. I think about you guys all the time and pray we all get our happy endings.
I'm going to do the best I can to be sensitive throughout this journey. I promise to never whine about fatigue, morning sickness, my expanding waistline, or how difficult it is to choose a stroller. I know what a blessing these complaints are and I will never take my pregnancy for granted. Heck, the first day I felt nauseated I sobbed tears of joy because I was so happy to have the telltale pregnancy symptom.
Know that I am still going to bring up infertility. My infertility struggle has really impacted how I've handled my pregnancy. I've dealt with some unique emotions and I want to share them. And the fact is, most people with infertility will eventually be pregnant, so I know many of you can or will relate to me one day. (I know. I cannot believe I just said that. I used to want to slap people when they said that to me.)
Finally, to my non-infertile friends, you guys are amazing. Seriously. I bet it's been so hard to grasp what I'm going through, but you still offered me so much support. Thank you.
I want you to know one more thing about infertility, though: I was one of the lucky ones. In the infertility world, I got pregnant easily. All I had to do was take 25 little, white pills and then have relations with my husband. Many, many women with infertility have struggled much longer than me, have tried way more expensive and invasive treatments, and are still childless. So I am far from the textbook case.
Ok, now we can get into the more exciting pregnancy stuff. Hold on tight