I found out through blood work and ultrasounds this week that I am not responding to my fertility meds
I am pretty heartbroken, frustrated, and angry. And still slightly hopeful. I go back to the doctor on Sunday morning to see if my eggs are just late bloomers.
The cycle of hope and disappointment is exhausting. It's what made me put my fertility journey on pause last year.
The only thing that let me forget about my problems was my running.
Oh gosh, this headband is too accurate...
I promised myself I wouldn't turn to running again. I've put mileage and racing on the backburner for awhile.
But, I'd be lying if I told you my internet browser didn't take me here a few times each week.
It's so, so tempting to throw myself into racing again and ignore my fertility struggles. Although I know ignoring a problem will never make it go away.
I'm kind of at a loss for healthy ways to cope.
Doing more yoga has been has been quite awesome, but so far the only benefits I've gained are physical and not mental.
Spending time with my local friends and talking to my far away friends often has been an awesome distraction (and my BFF is coming to visit me next weekend, yay ). But I don't want to distract myself too much because I don't think distraction equals coping. It's such a conundrum.
So I've turned to cupcakes. I have had so many cupcakes recently, it's quite embarrassing. And I'm not even sure it's the taste of the cupcake I enjoy so much. I just really enjoy picking it out and admiring the little ball of beauty. Don't worry, I definitely eat it too…
How do you cope? I could really use some advice. Healthy suggestions only please; I don't think taking up drinking will help my fertility