I started writing this post and didn’t even realize I wrote something similar back in January. I guess I felt compelled to make more confessions!
1. Sometimes mother’s intuition is way off. I can usually tell in an instant based on Wyatt’s behavior if he “just” has a cold or is teething or if it’s something else. I messed up recently, though. I mentioned in my last munchkin meals post that Wyatt was having some reflux issues again. I took him to the doctor this week because things haven’t gotten better. Luckily, they haven’t gotten worse either – I just wanted to be proactive and have a plan if things worsened after the baby came.
Well, no, it’s not reflux. In fact, it’s something we have to keep a close eye on. It can be one of two rare things (of course it’s rare, my poor child’s digestive system) – one is harmless and one, well, isn’t. Wyatt’s pediatrician and allergist are discussing next steps and getting back to me. I’m obviously worried sick about Wyatt, but I’m also disappointed in myself. So much for mother’s intuition! Have I been so preoccupied with the pregnancy that I didn’t take Wyatt’s symptoms seriously? Does mother’s intuition not work as well when you have more than one child?
2. I do not know how full-time working moms do it. No, I’m not trying to fuel a mommy war about who has it harder – all moms have it hard! I’m just beyond impressed with your ability to get yourself and little person/ people dressed, groomed, fed, and bags packed and out the door by a certain time every morning. I only have to get my one child ready for preschool two mornings per week and no matter how early we get up, I always feel so rushed.
3. I wish I was still working full-time at my old job. It’s been 2.5 years since I was let go but I still miss my job all.the.time. I’m always searching for others like it, but have yet to be successful. I miss the work a lot. Plus, I think I’d be a better mom and have more patience if I had more dedicated work time with more childcare. Oh, and not having to worry as much about finances as much would be a huge bonus, too!
4. That being said, most days as a stay-at-home/ part-time working mom are pretty great. Wyatt doesn’t listen to me at all (he listens to daddy and his teachers though, so yay?) which drives me insane and brings me to tears some days. Still, toddlers are these amazing little people. I’m pretty sure there’s nothing better than hearing a 2 year old giggle and hearing “I yuv you, mommy”.
He’s great at running away from me. At least he’s not in the street in this picture.
5. I’m glad this isn’t my first pregnancy. One of my good friends had her first baby recently and is shocked by how hard and around-the-clock caring for a baby is. I tried warning her during her pregnancy, but what first-time mom-to-be understands how hard it will really be? I definitely didn’t! There’s just no way to know what it’s like caring for a child until you have one of your own. I’ve reassured her a million times that it gets easier, but I know she can’t understand that yet either. I’m so glad I have experience on my side and won’t be blindsided this time around. I know it will be much harder than I realize having two kiddos, but I also know that things will get better at some point.
6. So, I’m taking all that advice people gave me during my first pregnancy and listening it. Sadly, you can’t stock sleep so “sleep now” doesn’t help you feel well-rested once baby comes. But it is so nice being able to nap when Wyatt naps and going to bed early knowing that I (probably) won’t be woken up by a screaming child an hour later. Pregnancy insomnia is getting bad again, though, and most days I’m wide awake by 5am. Instead of schlepping to the gym or forcing myself to do work, I’m just relaxing. I’ll drink my coffee in silence and sometimes make a big breakfast for us. Soon 5am will bring tears, nursing and pumping sessions, and NYCM training runs, so I’m savoring my alone time while I can.
7. Running is getting harder because I’ve gained so much weight. I’m up a solid 30 lbs. now at 34 weeks, and my legs and feet feel it with every single step. I remember thinking this towards the end of my first pregnancy, but was hesitant to say it because I was afraid of the backlash, but here we go: I have the utmost respect for people who start running when they’re overweight. Seriously. You guys deal with aches, pains, and other hurdles that thin runners don’t have to deal with. I’m not trying to be insensitive at all, I’m in awe of you and find you truly inspiring. I bow down to you!
8. However, I’m thankful this is my only running complaint at 34 weeks. I don’t know how I’ve managed to bypass pelvic discomfort, Braxton Hicks, heartburn, or any other truly bad pregnancy complaints on my runs so far – I was done running and even walking by this time with Wyatt. Running is still pretty enjoyable, so I’m going to keep it up until it no longer is.
Today is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent.
And if you’re Catholic, or just like the idea of giving something up for Lent, you most likely spent yesterday the same way I did: stuffing your face.
x4 or 5 or 6…
This year, the six weeks of Lent happen to also be the last six weeks of my pregnancy. When my husband and I discussed what we were giving up last week, he was surprised I had planned to give up anything. After all, I’ve already given up three of my most favorite things: sleeping on my stomach, running fast, and lunch meat.
Still, it’s important to me to give something up for Lent. Besides religious reasons*, I’ve made some great, lasting healthy lifestyle changes that started during Lent. I kicked my fast food habit my senior year of high school, I realized I didn’t have to binge drink every weekend to have a good time in college, and I finally stopped using artificial sweeteners (I was a Splenda addict) five years ago.
I had grand plans of giving up buying anything that wasn’t a necessity this year. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it before, but my 2014 goal has been to really get our finances under control. Things have been going well so far and I’m proud of our progress, but there is still a lot of room for improvement. So, I thought 40 days without buying anything extra would be the perfect challenge – a new behavior that would hopefully last.
But I just don’t think the timing is right with the pregnancy. These are my last few weeks alone with Wyatt, and there are plenty of extras I don’t want to give up because I know they’ll go away soon anyway. I want to go on weekly lunch dates with him, take him to playdates at museums that have an admission fee, and treat him to frozen yogurt just because. I know this is selfish and not in the Lenten spirit at all, but it is what it is.
So, I’m giving up chocolate again this year. I feel like this is my old standby. It won’t be easy to quit chocolate cold turkey when I’m super pregnant, but I figure it’s a good time to tame my sweet tooth – it’ll be 100x worse when I’m nursing!
All from the last 2.5 weeks. Think I have a slight chocolate problem?
Staying away from chocolate won’t be a permanent change, nor would I want it to be. I’m also giving up social media when Wyatt is awake. I would love to break up with my phone all together, but sometimes editors email a few writers potential assignments and it’s first come, first serve. So, I have to check my email pretty constantly. But I don’t have to play on Instagram all the livelong day or constantly look for deals in my neighborhood’s marketplace on Facebook. I’d love this change to last so fingers crossed!
What are you giving up or doing for Lent?
*I do not want this to turn into a debate whether it’s “right” to give up something for Lent or not. I know giving up chocolate or beer or whatever for 40 days is not a real sacrifice, believe me. I always stick with my Lent commitment, but rarely any other challenges because doing it over Lent is more than just a ritual for me, it actually means something. I don’t feel like getting into religion further here, so we can agree to disagree if this isn’t for you. Thank you!
Wohoo, we made it to March! I’m 33 weeks and very happy to still be pregnant.
Now vs. 33 weeks with Wyatt. I think I’ve caught up in the belly which is scary because he was huge for a 37 weeker.
After the preterm labor scare over New Year’s, I remember thinking my baby’s birthday cannot be January or February, we need to make it to March. And we have! I really, really, really hopes she hangs in there until April, but I’m thankful to have made it this far.
Weight gain: Up another pound this week, bringing the total to 29 lbs. so far.
I haven’t been sleeping well which really bugs me. I know I’m not going to sleep at all for months after she arrives, so it would be nice to sleep now. Oh well, in theory I’ll be sleeping soundly again by this time next year so the countdown is on.
I’m still dealing with swelling, but it hasn’t been too bad. Thursday night into Friday was the worst of it so far. It’s a weird feeling when you wake up and cannot move your hands because they’re so huge. I’ve been following all of the tips my doctor suggested, so hopefully that continues to help.
Otherwise I’m feeling pretty good, especially considering I was on crutches by this point in my pregnancy with Wyatt. So, I’ll take that as a win.
Still running so I’m a happy girl! My biggest complaint on runs is painful feet and heavy legs. But I always feel better after a run than I did before it. I feel so much more limber and I can just move around more easily for awhile after I finish up, so I’m going to keep running for as long as I can.
Oddly enough, the most physically challenging part of my day is always bending down and picking up Wyatt’s toys after he goes to bed. How can I still run a few miles at a time, but picking up after a toddler feels like the hardest thing ever?
I used a Christmas gift card and got my first prenatal massage this week and… ehhh. I was pretty underwhelmed. It’s exactly how I felt about prenatal yoga during my last pregnancy. The point of the massage was to relax, which I’m not really into. I told the therapist I preferred more therapeutic massages and deeper pressure, but I guess that’s a no-no during pregnancy. It was relaxing, but I didn’t feel that “ahhh, I feel awesome” sensation afterwards. Definitely not worth the super-high price tag to me.
- M: OFF
- Tu: 4mi treadmill at 9:47 pace
- W: 1250m swim
- Th: 4mi treadmill at 9:41 pace
- F: 3mi treadmill at 10:10 pace
- S: 1050m swim
- S: 4mi outside at 9:54 pace
Prepping for baby
This week has been all about getting Wyatt ready. I feel like after baby girl gets here, it’s going to go from being this weird winter/spring mix (it was 70 yesterday, but we may get an ice storm later this week!) to the heat of summer in a second. So, I’ve been stocking up on bubbles, sunscreen, hats, and “new” summer clothes for Wyatt. I’ve been so busy thinking about the baby that I almost forgot Wyatt will need almost all new summer clothes. My favorite consignment sale of the year is this week so I’m hoping he’ll be good to go after that.
I also bought presents for the kiddos to exchange when they meet, and I put Wyatt’s Easter basket together.
Mostly goodies from the Target dollar bins plus a Little People tractor and some m&ms. I’m debating getting some plastic eggs and having an Easter egg hunt for him, but I’m not sure how to handle this. Wyatt has an egg allergy so he associates eggs with being bad – in fact, we try to not even say the word “egg”. But I wonder if he’s old enough to understand? I bet he’d have a blast hunting for plastic eggs!